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Desafortunadamente mi disimulo no pudo seguir y comente que yo también quería lo
mejor para que tuviéramos un lugar de trabajo efectivo para el bienestar de los
estudiantes. Y pregunte, que había hecho o porque se me estaba categorizando como
agresiva, terca e ignorante? Lo cual no fue del agrado de nadie y Melissa estaba
obviamente molesta, me imagino porque me había dicho que me quedara callada. Mi
jefe intervino para comentar que el solo hecho de que había dicho eso demostraba mi
forma de ser renuente y adversaria. Después de eso el tono de la junta se tornó
despectivo y dominante por parte de mi jefe y HR. Melissa me dijo que obviamente yo no
quería una resolución o que quizá no estaba entendiendo bien (válgame no puedo creer
el tono tan prejuicioso ya mero le faltaba decirme que si me lo tenía que decir en
español. Ya no sabía si decir algo, reírme, llorar, salir corriendo o que. Que de ahí en
adelante nuestra comunicación solo sería por medio de correos [electrónicos].
Terminaron la junta y me dijeron que me retirara. Mi mi cuerpo se sentía helado y mi
mente no podía entender el enfado hacia mi persona. Pareciera que mi sola presencia
era detestada. No había cosa que hubiese podido decir o hacer que fuera de su agrado.
Sé que las cosas pasaran como deben pasar, y confió en que estaré bien pero no se me
hace justo ni merecido.
May 23, 2021
The meeting was an ambush, my supervisor started the meeting saying we were not going
to discuss the website, because he had concerns about me that were bigger. And then he
let the HR people into the meeting. Even though Melissa had already told me, I felt very
apprehensive, it was not only one HR person but two. My heart was racing, but I was
able to stay calm. Unfortunately, everything turned out as I had already thought. But the
saddest part was that what they were telling me was putting all the blame on me. Melissa
started telling me that all my supervisor wanted to do was for the benefit of our division,
and that she was there to help. She talked and talked for about 5 minutes— I tried to stay
calm and quite to I did. However, when she started saying my supervisor was an
intelligent man with many ideas and plans from which I could learn. But that my
aggressive attitude, my lack of understanding and my stubbornness was making
everything more difficult. But that he was willing to help me if I did everything he asked
me to do. At that point she took a pause and asked me if I was in agreement. I could not
stay quiet and told them I also wanted the best so that we could have an effective place
for our students. And I asked what had I done or why was I being labelled as aggressive,
stubborn, and dumb. None of them were pleased with my question, and Melissa was
visibly upset, I guess because she had told me to stay quiet and I did not. My supervisor
intervened and said that as they could see from my words I was always unwilling and
defiant. After that the tone of the meeting was rude and forceful from HR and my
supervisor. Melissa told me that obviously I did not want a resolution or that maybe I
was not understanding correctly (my goodness the prejudice was unbelievable—they just
needed to ask if I needed everything translated into Spanish. I didn’t know whether to
reply, laugh, cry, run out of the room or what to do. Melissa said from the point forward
she would only communicate with me through email. They concluded the meeting and
asked me to leave. My body was cold, and my mind could not understand why they hated
me so much. It seemed that my presence was loathed. There is nothing I could have said